Tuesday, September 13, 2011

this is jojo

JoJo

This is JoJo, my mother-in-law. This photo was taken when she was in her thirties, and she’s now 88 and suffering from advanced Alzheimer’s. She no longer knows her own children, or even her husband of 60 years, although occasionally there’s a rare moment of lucidity when, for a few precious seconds, some electrical connection takes place in her brain and she knows exactly who he is. I’ve met her many times, but I’ve never known her, because the disease had made its inroads by the time I met my husband. And yet, when I look at this photo (which sits on our mantelpiece) I get a sense of the person she was: warm, funny, loving, kind. Her character shines through, even in this posed studio shot.

It’s a sad end for someone so vibrant, and yet in one way I actually envy her. Why? Because I have never known a woman so loved. My husband adores her, as do his three siblings, and they all make regular visits to see her even though it involves a long journey (involving air travel for some of them) and she doesn’t know who they are once they get there. My husband often says: “She managed to love us all equally, but at the same time made us all feel as if we were the special one”. It takes an extraordinary person to do that.

Her husband, my father-in-law, is devoted to her, having cared for her himself at home for nine years and then, when it got to be more than he could cope with, visiting her every day in the care home and spending hours encouraging her to eat. He takes in little tidbits that he knows will tempt her, talks to her, holds her hand, and just generally loves her - we should all be so loved.

There’s a story I came across about an elderly man who needed attention to a minor wound. He kept checking the time and was asked if he had to be somewhere. “Yes”, he replied, “I need to go and visit my wife; she has Alzheimer’s and I visit every day”. When asked if she would be worried if he was late, he replied that she no longer knew who he was. The nurse was surprised, and said, “So you still go every day, even though she no longer knows you?” The elderly man replied, “She may not know who I am, but I still know who she is”.

This photograph, this face, reminds her family of what she was and who she still is somewhere deep inside. It also helps those of us who never knew her to feel that they do, just a little. That’s the extraordinary power of photographs. If I had my way, in the room of every person suffering from dementia there would be a photograph like this, to remind the nurses that they’re caring for someone very like themselves, who once had a full, rich life, told stories, created, loved her husband and children, worked, cooked, was funny, happy, and sometimes sad.

The woman in this wonderful photo by Cynthia Brown Images also has such a lot of character that we feel we know something of her even though she lives very far away from most of us, and in a culture very different to our own.

gilly of the camera points both ways

Update: Since writing this post, Gilly has informed us that JoJo has passed away. Please join us in sharing your condolences with Gilly and her family in this time of sadness. -- the Mortal Muses

mekong boat mumma

mekong boat mumma by Cynthia Brown Images

14 comments:

Christian said...

Sorry for your family's loss Gilly. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Your husband must be a very kind and loving man to make sure his mom never felt alone, even in confusion.

mosey (kim) said...

What a wonderful and loving tribute to your mother-in-law, Gilly. My warmest condolences to you and the rest of JoJo's family.

Both photos shine with vibrance and personality.

urban muser said...

gilly, you should be proud of this tribute to jojo--what a wonderful way to remember her. you and your husband are in my thoughts.

Oliag said...

I worked many years as a nurse caring for dementia patients and know how difficult it is for those who love them. This description of love is so beautifully written that it went straight to my heart! So sorry for your family's loss...she was a lucky woman indeed!

tara said...

Gilly, I'm so sorry for your family's great loss. Beautiful tribute.

Holly {Soupatraveler} said...

Gilly, your story is so touching and loving and although written before JoJo's passing, a beautiful tribute. I lost both my grandmother's to dementia related illnesses, and they aren't easy. I'm so sorry for your family's loss and hope they are all well in this time of need.

Kirstin said...

Oh Gilly, this is such a wonderfully moving post. I work with many patients who have dementia and I always find it one of the saddest illnesses. My thoughts are with you and your husband's family.

Cindy said...

such a beautiful post .... sending you deepest condolences, gilly.

Cara said...

Oh Gilly it is SUCH a wonderful perspective and lovely tribute...so sorry for your loss. You were envious of her since she was so loved, but your own amazing love was a part of that, and shines here. well done.

Christina said...

what a beautiful post. again, i am so sorry for your loss, gilly.
xoxo

Kat Sloma said...

So sorry for your loss Gilly. Such a beautiful post to remember your mother-in-law.

teri said...

I totally get everything you said here. It could have been the story of my mom and dad. He took care of her for many years at home, and in the end, when she had to go into a nursing home, he was there every day feeding her. Those moments of lucidity you mentioned -- they were harder for me than anything else because I didn't want to let her go from a phone call or visit when it happened, knowing the next time I saw her, the knowing would be gone again.

It's a terrible disease, frightening for those who contract it and so deeply saddening for family members to watched their loved ones' spirit exiting their bodies. It's frustrating that so much time has passed without a cure or even an effective treatment.

Gilly said...

Thank you all so much for your replies. I've just got back from Northern Ireland where the funeral was held, and the minister did a wonderful job of bringing out how amazing a person she was. He also made a very touching and well-deserved tribute to my father-in-law, who loved and cared for her so well and for so long. Dementia is such a cruel disease, robbing you of the person while they're still alive, and my heart goes out to anyone who's had - or is having - to deal with this.

Anita @ GoingALittleCoastal said...

That was a beautiful post Gilly. She was such a beautiful woman. It's a horrible disease. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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